Depression

Ok... real life post here.

 Right now I am deep down depressed... it is a soul sucking, energy draining depression that makes it hard to do anything.  The kind of depression that can easily turn nasty if I let it... but I won't go there.  There are days that I feel like I am barely holding on and it feel so hopeless, and I really don't want to hang on anymore... but I am and will continue to because I need to.  I know that better times are on the way, I know deep down that this is just a small hurdle to get over(even though here in the middle of it it doesn't seem that small....)

This depression also breeds anxiety, and sensory overloads from all the noises around me,  There were a couple of times last night I woke up and fought to go back to sleep... the squeaking of the ceiling fan, and the hum of the window unit were as bad as fingernails on a chalk board...  These anxieties, and overloads make it really hard to feel like I am a good mother or wife.  Which in turn feeds the depression even more.

Being isolated doesn't help either...  All my friends are on the other side of town.  And with only the one vehicle it makes it difficult to be able to go visiting... so I spend a lot of time on Facebook...

Hanging on ... I have a Dr. Appointment in November... hopefully I can get some relief then.

Want to make me smile a little?  Send me a message of encouragement, or even just make an order off of youravon.com/astansbury  (yes seeing that someone made an order makes me smile, and also takes away some of my stress...)